i'm loosing it - no i don'tmean weight

I just logged in and saw all your great success sis - way (weigh!) to go -- having a moment and just need to vent. I don't want to turn to the bag of miss vickie's my kids have in the kitchen. I am struggling with the demands of being a divorced single mom - with all the responsibilities ... I have great kids but they are kids and have challenges of their own that I somehow seem to take on. I am feeling the pressure. My neighbour rented his house out to university students and this weekend they decided to throw a "kegger" party that got way way out of control== and I don't know why but it has upset me a lot more than it should have. I was up for hours worrying about these really aggressive drunk university students -- watching the police arrest them -- it was not a fun experience not to feel safe in your own home-

I want to make sure i am not just making excuses - need to make more time for myself.

Aother swim done...

...and it was awesome!

The slow lane and the medium lanes were both crowded so I opted for the fast lane. I am definitely not in shape for that but it made me push myself and I held my own. It was a fantastic workout and right now I have the really good post exercise fatigue, muscles feel worked out and I am now home and warm. Plans are made to meet up again on Tuesday so we are on our way to making this a habit. Unfortunately though, walking back to the car I discovered this real cool loooking little bakery. The choclate chip cookies in the window looked amazing. Maybe one day I will plan for a treat there althoguh I probably don't need to know if their stuff is good. Ihave exercised every day since Tuesday! Not sure about skating tomorrow, we'll see maybe it will end up being a rest day instead. Feel really good right now especially because I just had Quinoa salad for lunch mmmm love that stuff!!!

On a roll.....

...exercise wise and it feels great. After my swimm on Tues, I went fopr a walk Wed (my longer route- 3.4K) and also a walk yesterday (about 2k). Today I plan to ride my exercise bike and tomorrow I am making plans to go swimming again. Sunday might be a skating day. It feels great to be getting back to a habit of regular exercise and coincidentally (not really) I have been staying on track with WW and eating within my points. Yay. Ok so it is 1/2 week out of the many that will need to follow but it feels really good to be on track- why would I mess that up?

Later:

So I managed to do 30 mins on the exercise bike which is longer than I can usually do- 20 mins has been the max until now mostly because I get bored but today I had a magazine to read as well as the TV so it wasn't too bad. Evn better, my plans for swimming have been confirmed- whoo hoo!

My Swim

OK so I have been talking about this forever and finally for the first time since the outdoor pool closed at the end of the summer I got back in the pool. Yay! It took making plans to meet up with a friend to get me there but hey it worked. I had wicked headaches all day long yesterday and if it was just me I wouldn't have gone. Lying on the couch wasn't making my headaches any better so I figured I might as well try a swim. It went OK although my bathing cap hurt so I had to take it off. I can't say I swam well but I did swim, lots of rests at the end of the lane to but that is OK as I work my way back into it. We swam for about 1/2 hour which I am happy with . By the end I started feeling really nauseous which sometimes happens to me when I have bad headaches but it went away after about 1 hr. I could feel the knots in my neck and shoulders when I swimming so I think keeping this up will be good for that. We are going to commit to a 1x/week swim for sure and try for a 2nd when we can. Yay!!

So So weekend

Could have been better, could have been worse. Haven't done much on the exercise front the second half of the week and the healthy eating has slipped as well. Ahhh oh well still trying. Have made plans to meet a friend for swimming on Tues PMs so hopefully that works out. Food wise I am going to pick out a couple of new recipes to try and try to have meals partly made to help keep me on track.

Okay so things have been pretty good this week - but how do I know when I will not write it down (I think it is because I really do not want to know how much I am eating and then I can not blame it all on genetics) So today will commit to writing everything down - hard to do on a Saturday. But the kids are really supportive and I will use their changes as inspiration - and no it did not go easily a lot of up and downs but the end is what matters. I am off to walk to the mall to pick up a lullaby cd for a baby gift.

okay ditched the ww meeting yesterday because i might be up .5 lb???? what is with that??? back on track and had everything organized today -- now kidling called - sick - had to take to doc....... long story short I will not be making it to the gym at the end of my day. I was a little frustrated but realized i have to run with the punches and will make sure I walk LB tonight - kidling is pretty sick so I don't want to leave her alone until she wakes up and I can make sure she is drinking -- we will leave eating till tomorrow. I do not remember any time that I was so sick that I did not eat!

Will get this all going again - how did the walk go sis? the quinoa salad was (is) amazing!!